我呢？ I Lost Myself

星期五的早晨，听着Christina Aguilera的 You Lost Me, 又情绪化了吗？又好像不是。难道每一件事一定要有一定的答案吗？

It's Friday morning, and I am listening to Christina's You Lost Me. Am I being emo again. I guess not. Must there be a must in everything?

我还记得，以前的很多事情，现在好像都不一样了。相信每个人都一样吧，包括我自己。一如往常的，也许一个人的一句话，一天内发生的事情，或一样不起眼的东西，会让我的一些坚持多年的想法，突然改变。
Things are not the same anymore compare to last time. I guess everyone it's the same, don't we? As it always happened to me, sometimes, a single word, a sentence, a case, a tiny little things will change my mind, in a seconds, in a minutes, which I actually been holding it for years.

而我现在最喜欢的一句话就是 ‘别把话说在前头’。
Never says never, this is the sentence I love it so much at the moment.

以前的我，一直都希望越开结婚，有个家最好。但因为一句 ‘别因为结婚而结婚'，我改变了，变得好像对婚姻有恐惧症。但我却没放弃过爱情。
I used to be someone that wanted to have a family asap. But 'dont get marry because you wanted to get marry', I've change. Now I seems to have phobia towards commitment. But still I never give up on love.

以前的我，省得连用一块钱好像一百块.现在虽然不是赚很多，当然也不是乱用钱，但可以感觉得到我更舍得了，因为我想对自己更好。为什么，就只觉得，存那么多钱，万一一天突然不在了，或真的会有2012，那。。。不是很浪费吗？并不是说我相信有2012的传说，我只是觉得地球真的生气了，而我也赞同它来惩罚我们人类。而我也知道，一个人努力的环保，是比不上10个人的浪费，虽然我是不会放弃的。
I used to use 1 ringgit like 100 ringgit. But no more stingy like last time, although I am not earning much right now, and of course I dont spend like hell. But, who knows when is our last day in the world? who knows whether there is 2012? Now I spend 100 ringgit like 100 ringgit, I wanted to treat myself better, no regrets no more. It's not that I believe the myth of 2012, but I just felt that the earth it's angry on us and so I agree that the earth wanted to punish the human. Also, I know that one person's hardwork can never defeats teamwork, although I have not give up yet.

以前的我，爱幻想，爱不切实际的人事物。现在的我变得更实际，也更懂得面对现实。很多时候，很多事情，我并不是想逃避，我只是不想完全接受这世界的残酷，但这就是说生存之道。
I used to dream, alot. But now I became more practical, and face the reality better. There's many times, many things, I would prefer to avoid it, cause I don't wanna accept the ugly truth of the world. But this is life.


我知道星期五是大家感到开心的日子，但现在我这么写并不时代表着我不开心哦。就只因为有感触，而这一首动听的歌点缀了我。
I know everyone should be happy on a Friday, but well...I wrote this doesn't mean that I am not happy, just have some thoughts suddenly, and the song caused me.

如果你看了这篇文章后，觉得我很矛盾，那我就成功了,
I've made it, if you think that I am so ambivalent after you finish this article.

因为这世界不一定有一定的。
There's no certainties in this world.