对不起 谢谢你 sorry and thank you

对不起，爸，你帮我准备的便当。
虽然是隔夜的饭菜，却是近早的心意，
而我却因为没胃口，怕浪费，嫌麻烦，
而打翻了你的心意。
看见你脸上所露出的失望，
现在回想起来，心中还是莫名的痛着，很内疚。

Sorry, daddy, you prepared the breakfast for me,
Although it was yesterday’s dishes, but you prepared it for me this morning,
I rejected because I have no appetite, worry of wasting the food and so on,
Which I disappointed you,
The disappointment on your face,
I can remember until now, and I feel so bad and hurt when I thought of it.

对不起，妈咪，每天载我去上班，
虽然每天我等你，多过你等我，
而我却觉得你载我去上班时理所当然的，
每天傍晚准时地打给我，
问我是否要载我回，我却没想太多的夜归。
现在回想起你的用心，让我感觉很不舍。

Sorry mommy, you fetch me to work every day.
Although I wait for you more than you wait for me,
And I take advantage on that,
Every day you call me on time
Asking me whether do I have someone to fetch me back, but I always come home late.
Now I feel to tear away when I thought of how much effort you put.

对不起，女麻女麻，我差点就放弃了我给你的承诺，
自从你离世，我说过我会尽我所能，
陪着他们，迁就他们，尊重他们，
几次因为他们无力的要求与争吵，
让我真的什么都不想再理了，
让我觉得我真的做不到，我真的想放弃了。
但，回想起您，就像给了我隐性的鼓励。
希望下次写的不是对不起，而是谢谢你。

Sorry, nanny, I’ve almost give up on the promise I promised
Since after you left, I’ve said I will try my best,
Be with them, take care of them, tolerate with them,
There’s times when they are too much,
Which make me feel so frustrated,
And make me feel that I can’t do it anymore, I have to give up,
But when I think of you, I can feel the support from you.

Hopefully the next time I will say thank you but not sorry to you.

累

好累，为什么这人生道路必须走的那么累。但，我还是会走下去，因为没有选择。

醒了！真的醒了。常像个小孩那样，希望，渴望被人爱，但原来要别人爱，比爱自己更难。

因为只有自己最了解自己。人都是自私的，都只会帮自己说话。要全世界的人都赞同自己说的话，我也不例外。但你赞不赞同，我真的不介意，因为我认命。

借口？不是借口，难道我该反驳吗？有用吗？除非你有办法去走我走过的路。并么有什么大不了的人生，但至少拿可以让你知道，我到底是怎样的一个人，我到底是什么心态。因为我一直都相信，每个人都不一样，因为每个人都有着不同的背景。

Tired, of walking this path, but I will, cause I have to.

I’m awake, totally awake. Though to live like a kid, hope and desperate that people can love me. But wanted someone to love us, it’s harder than we love ourselves.

Only we understand ourselves. Everyone are selfish, only talk for ourselves. Including me, that we hope the whole world can agree on what we said. But do I really care that you don’t agree? No, cause I don’t care.

That’s not excuses because it’s useless to debate or defend. Only if you know what I have been through. Nothing much about it, but at least you knows who and what I am. And I always believe, what makes you you.

k-time at Red Box!

went to Red Box last week, and wanna share something with people who love to sing.

Firstly I wanted to talked about their package thing la. Cause I still have student card, so I did used the student card which is RM8++, with only 2 drinks. BUT at last I changed to normal head, cause they said as long there is someone paying for student price, then that room is not allowed to order beer...I was like T_T. As if we are all under 18 or so, ya I know this will go well with their internal package stuff or whatsoever, but really very...ma farn and stuff loh

so ok la, that's the only thing I beh song abit cause u can earn money u dun wan, but in a good way is tat if those are really student, its good that they are this strict.

so our singing time its from 3pm-6pm..18++, with a dish and a drink. Then they got ask us wanna add another RM10 to have buffet and sing till 9pm. Of course we want la! If not mistaken, I remember last time we have to pay like another RM40 which is the cost of buffet dinner package, even we want to extend it. But now not same d, which I think its good la. Because of this point I absolutely will go back to Red Box again.

Plus their buffet food are not bad at all, service also not bad. Cause that time I wanna know my redbox card's points. So the waiter help me, which quite leng chai oso la..hahaha...u can actually use the existing points to exchange a drink or something, which is very suitable for me this kind of person when I dont wanna spend another almost RM10 to order 1 more drink.

So here are the pics

he said he's not ready yet...but I dont think so loh

I have to give a compliment for one of the waiter there for taking this pic for us...not because this pic is damn nice or wat, somehow its just a normal pic and that's what we want. but the thing is that he offered to take pic for us before we ask him to...which I consider a very good service! seriously..although there's people taking pics every where at anytime already, but still I dont see the waiters there will offer to help...instead, this is the first time I've met this situation.

me and Yann were actually very excited of having so much to eat :p

posing again...more poser than us la :p

overall, I really enjoyed and love the service and food... definitely will go back (cause I got free head charge voucher) hahahahaha

anyone wanna join?

farewell for June

Pictures speak thousands words, this post would not have much words cause no words can describe the feeling.

Enjoy the pics

all trying to be sexytary :p

act cute type

normal type

no ppl want type? sure anottt

ham sap type..wuahaha

charming type

ooo...sexy n seductive

pro type (she mmg a pro)

some said this looks like an owl...so OUT from the list

'innocent' type

so who u think shud win the title? haha

always pose like tat...everyone oso scared

ok...normal pics

n only got 2 :p

take care June...we will always miss you..must often hang out with us k :p

make up or not

Let's go straight to the topic...shall we...

With n without make up, and heavy make up and no make up.so here comes the prob. Does that really matter?

ok la, I think heavy make up may be categorize under no make up loh...why? cause both are scary. But how people define heavy make up? wearing a fake eye lashes to the beach...or with light make up to the beach...ya I know..the answer is, we dont need to wear make up to the beach...but people did wear make up to the beach nowadays..and I dont think its a crime if they do so...although I dont

BUT again, let us recap why we should not wear make up to the beach? WHY? cause we will get wet, so whats the point of having make up? or another simple answer, why we even wear make up to beach...ok..cut the crap

another point is...they always said, there's no ugly woman but lazy woman...then now said walao, so big diff before and after make up...but if there is no diff...what's the point to wear make up?

Actually I do agree with some points where, we memang dont need to wear heavy make up..but remember what people always tell us?

C.O.N.F.I.D.E.N.C.E

Make up is only one of the tool take make some of us AT LEAST have some confidence, so why not. Some will have confidence by showing their cleavage, some show their legs, some show their hair and whatsoever...as long the point is to have confidence. but not for all la cause weekend I dont wear make up not because I am confidence, just because I am lazy when I have to wear make up to work for 5 days...because that makes me looks more 'lively' (stupid panda eyes T_T)

Plus u tell me, which girl doesnt like to look pretty? since young lets say 3-5? she even know she want to wear nice dresses. until 60something...they still will use skin care products...if there's a scar on the face...no matter what age we are on...WE MIND!

Conclusion? well, the only thing I can say is...we cant care too much of what people say. Just do what u like as long u did not kill, steal or affect others physically (or maybe mentally too).

P.S FYI, natural make up doesnt mean it's really a light make up (if u get what I mean), cause they usually use hell lots of ding ding dong dong to cover up. Google it :p

pre farewell

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shit man, getting more n more 'pou' pics, shud be happy or wat? hahaha...but still I didnt drink much la, just hanging out with the nice ppl...and this is the pre farewell for June....JUNEEEEE DONT GO :(

We went to The Library which located at the curve. Few of them commented that they love the place. its a nice place to drink and chit chat. For me I prefer club, cause can dance ma..haha..but of course its still depends on who we are going with rite :p

somehow..the environtment is very nice

June June :) and Sylvia

but the 'zu gok' seems to be him - Michael..haha

see...Shi Yin oso sien d :p hahahahah *just kidding*

hahaha...ok la..enuff of him d..so he wanted to be the camera man

the two that talk the whole day...so didnt join us for the photo session

and group photosssss

sweet sweet June...we will miss u...

wrong path of my life

when it comes to choose between 2, I'm sucks at it. Not to have the excuse that I'm a typical Pisces, but as u can see the icon, they swim 2 different ways right, that's how and what I am feeling whenever I have to make a decision, between 2 things. and whichever decision had made, they will go the extreme way.

I seriously hate to make a decision, no matter what it is, example choosing from either Maybelline mineral make up foundation or L'oreal's one. I've used both before, both are not bad, but L'oreal are RM10 more expensive that Maybelline, with 2g more. Without forcing by my fren, I guess I will spend like hours to decide on that (which I actually went to see the exact thing for twice d)

Sometimes I really hate myself. Cause in this world, people wont wait for you, or forgive you by what you did. I hate myself because I always take forever to make decision, I just somehow need a bf that will guide my life, can make decision for me. Its not that I cant be independent, but I just prefer, really prefer that everything, I can depends on this guy. but another is the point that I hate myself for being too controlling sometimes on my own life.

Ya, too controlling. I know it sounds stupid cause I said I prefer a guy that can take care of my life, in a way my life have to be...control by him. But yea, to be a good decision maker, or at least someone can make decision wise, I brainwash myself to be someone know what I am thinking and doing.

At the end of the day, I either have to choose someone that is good in making decision, somehow an ego woman; or the typical 'dumb' woman that rather let the bf control everything of yours.

I really hate my life now. I used to have someone guide me in my life, but yet did not control too much of my life. I dont feel stupid where I felt I am so stupid now. Having no sense, no goal, no thinking. I used to think so much, I love that, not like now. I have no more imaginations or whatsoever things that I used to have that appears in my brain now. I'm just so dead...DEAD!! just like what I wrote in my msn nick...

Dead will be the best word to describe my life now, not sure all the imaginations or stuff that I used to think have gone is it because the influences of my working life...even now I am writing this, I have no structures, no points, no whatsoever....The only thing I know now is that I really need to stand up, and get out of my life now...I really need to know what I am doing and take control of my own life...*finger cross*

woohoo clubbing

wow...its been a while I didnt go to the 'actual' clubbing...u oso can see from my blog wat, when u get to see my clubbing pics? no ma rite :p if u said the last time I dance with the music...its was in my company trip at Krabi, on May...if u said the actual clubbing...it will be last year around feb when I back Msia from Melbourne

BUT...this is the first time I almost drunk...as in I really drink. To be honest, people who know me know I dont drink, I cant cause I am allergic and the main reason is that I just dont like the taste. That day that alcohol taste not bad, so I think I drank for like 5 cups, its vodka anyway

As I said I am not drunk cause I still can remember everything, just very happy and 'high'...haha...its good, cause I seldom let go myself...tension babe...

so here are the pics :)

2 cups only..my face felt warm d

when Michael go around n take pics (as wat he always do), I continue minum

wonder why Connie always dont look at the camera

Kidd T_T spoil her image d

but no worries, cause she always looks pretty...always :D

see my face..no need blusher also looks red d :p

took with 2 pretty gals...wuahaha...

after that, really beh tahan d...whole night keep on dancing only..I always love Sanctuary's music :D

next post will be farewell for JUNE!!

我不是我

我，走进了一个森林。它，有好多好多的树木。高高的，密密的，让我有些安全感，但也有些害怕，因为不懂路途中会遇到什么事。

其实并不寂寞，因为这个森林住着各种各样的人。只是有点孤单，但我喜欢那感觉。有人对我说，大家都需要很长的时间才能走出这森林，大家都会有那么的一天，奇怪的，我，只想赶快离开这里。

果然，那一天没那么快来临的，在这个路途中，诱惑，有许多。但让我最难抵挡的，就是路途中所遇到的人，或者陪我走这个路程的人。而我这个人，最害怕的，其实并不是寂寞，而是分离。

我曾试过，在路途上，我都尽量不和别人交谈。除了问路以外，什么都尽量往心里摆。可是，我失败了。因为那是不可能的，就算我要变得很冷淡，也是不能的。

我多希望，这旅程是单独的。我多希望，人不是七情六欲的。

我希望，我不是我。

customer service nowadays

Sorry guys, if you are not interested in complains, you shall not continue reading this post. BUT frankly speaking, I don’t like complains too. Actually its not complain la, its more to commenting on the customer service nowadays.

I’m not sure it’s coincidence, or this problem its getting worst nowadays, while I am listening to ONEfm morning kaki this morning, Jeff had a topic on talking about the customer service nowadays too.

Since me myself work as a retailer before, I do know how they actually feel when we met some customer are really hard to serve, but cannot deny that there are very nice customers too. As I said I know how they feel and SOME of them works really hard (some work hard just because of getting more commission, which have no wrong la, cause who don’t wanna earn more) but are they suppose to show their fucking asshole face if the customer leave without buying anything (although didn’t ask much), aren’t their jobs is to serve the customer good? But not showing those faces? Sometimes I just feel so pity for their bosses by having this kind of workers.

So I am here to post there are few places of their promoters. I wont wanna complain the shop because its not that their product are not good but their promoters. I’ll just use example of yesterday first then, cause its sucks the whole day.

I will always remember this girl from M.A.C. Yup, this brand considered a brand that majority of the girls love to use, although it is abit pricy for some and affordable for some, their product..no doubt its good, and that is why I far far also go mid valley, thought wanna ‘bong chan’. I was looking for concealer, so this ‘malay’ girl (which I heard my friend said can speak Cantonese) asked me what I am looking for, so I said concealer, then she intro me the liquid type…then I know that I am not interested in the liquid want, so I said thanks, I’ll look around first. Then after I look around, without asking her anything…and even purposely said THANKS to her while I’m leaving, guess what, she stared at me OMG…wtf of service is that? I feel so stupid by thanking her, but its ok I don’t want to be as the same level as her.

Seriously I kinda pity the mid valley branch. I’m not sure about the other branch, but when I walked in, they are taking pictures there while there are customers in the shop. But that should be ok la cause maybe they have events going on or what.

Next goes to Isetan in The Garden. Seriously I wonder whether they are educated to serve customers. I mean…BURBERRY…ok…my fault, I should have remember that those branded place punya promoters usually look down on people, but if you want look down on people then talk behind la, not judge then telling how you feel by your eyes and expression infront of the customers kan, if people can buy LV, then she can afford to buy your BURBERRY purse, or maybe she’s a BURBERRY die heart fan that don’t like to see other people use other brand’s stuff and masuk the shop, who knows…

Hai…there are more…but I guess its time to give some credits to those are damn nice. The girl I will remember forever its from Laniege (1utama branch). LOVELY…I remember me and my fren didn’t put on make up whatsoever, dress so damn cin cai, but the way she served us are superb, we didn’t even buy anything but she still thanks us and greet us nicely. Best service award for sure I will give her. Another will be the girl from SASA (cineleisure = ecurve). Some of you gals should know that how SASA girls actually promote their stuff (the more expensive you buy the more commission they got, common sense la). So this skinny gal with single eyelid wan kinda good, she wont like die die approach you to buy exi stuff, she will get what you need, and by your budget…doesn’t that sounds good?! even the indian guy that works in the nasi lemak mamak stall are better than those people works in those high class place, what happen to them? Dear bosses, please educate your promoters. They are there to help you earn money, not chase money away.

Not saying that we don’t have the money, it’s whether those things worth our money or not. Yes, even in Malaysianbabes forum have this topic. I totally agree where some stuff are affordable or cheaper (not cheap), but the quality it’s even better than those expensive one. PLUS, what for I go those places where they treat people like shit, I rather go Watson to have those lovely promoters providing you the basket with a big smile on face and a nice frenly tone, or some promoters there will even do demo for you by using the product, at the end of the day, you get what you want…happily, aren’t those are the way of shopping?

What we want are just satisfaction, not discrimination.