boring nowadays

so boring nowadays...holiday has passed 1 month d..but still have long way to go...wanted to find a job to work or part time..but lazy..wan work for those events tat kind of job...but no ppl introduce or either not trustworthy...somemore i dun think this time tat pc fair my boss will ask us back ler...so sien at home lehh...anyone can intro me any job anot?? as long no need wear sexy those can liao...
coz too boring...so wanted to upload some photos to this site...actually once i had this blog here oso wanted to post some pics but altot read the instruction d still cant upload...anyone can teach me how ah?

straight or curly?

so 'fan' ahhh....i very boring with my hairstyle already (my hairstyle already maintain 2 or 3 years d, just getting longer only)..so tot wan 2 make curl..RM490-500 included digital perm, color, cut and 2 treatments...he can help me straighten my frindge somemore for free coz too much hair...all my frens oso said worth...i oso felt is very worth..monsoon woh..and is permanant wan...but no money :(...and scared do liao not nice, doesnts suite me...and the promotion until end of this month only....ahhhhhh....really dunno should do it anot ah :(((

izzit her?

i already forgot wat date i had tat dream ler..if ppl who did read my blog often..should know that my grandma had passed away last month...i think is this month lah..within 2 or 3 weeks...i dreamt of my grandma...and that dream quite real.
the dream start with i saw her flowing out from her room, i terkejut lah of coz...coz i scared ghost wan mah..so we got talk like tat loh...i forgot whehter she got open her mouth anot when she talk..coz my mom said if those dead ppl come back to tell u somehting in ur dream..supposingly they won't open their mouth wan...anyway...after i saw her..i told my paretns that grandma had came back (told them in the dream lah)..but they cant see her...i am the only one who can saw her and talked to her...she told me her place she living now got good and bad lah...good is got a good chef there cook very well...those food are so delicious she said..and then i forgot shy she said not good already ler...i forgot i dreamt until where..then i woke up..is at 6something in the morning...so i went back to sleep loh..then the same dream appear again woh...but this time my younger brother also can saw her and talked to her liao.
so i told my dream to my parents...the scariest part...not scariest also lah..maybe i should said...er...wat we call in cantonese 'che'...is because i also dreamt that she ate tou fu...ya..i know eat tou fu are no scary lah..but then when i told my mom this..my mom said ya..she lovev to eat tou fu...but the point is...i never know that she like to eat tou fu mah...
so...izzit mean that she really come into my dream and trying to tell me that she is ok now ?

I've learnt a lesson today

hai...i also dunno today consider good or not a good day.
me and my frens went to XXX complexe to take photo of batik to do our assignment geh..before tat we have 2 meet the manager to approve us to take pics. 1st is my fren went in first because he had the approval letter from college. then later tat manager ask him to ask us go in coz we dun have mah...supposingly each person must have one wan.
so i tot she know our things already...when we get in..i see no ppl start to talk with her first...then i mai start 2 tell her the reason we come orwatever things loh...mana tau...kena scold...like we are the one who kena interview before enter to work for her like tat...said wat expect her to aprrove us to take the photos by not asking permission before we come in (but she is the one who ask us to come in mah) and then at first didn't introduce ourself and wat college and watsoever...aiya..alot lah...BUT...i did learn from tat lah...i know tat might be our wrong because we didn't introduce ourselve or watever coz i tot some ppl dun like waste so much time mah...somemore we are not wanted to interview..we jut wan to get approval.
but at last luckly i said something correct lah when she ask what benefit can the shop get, and she think the benefit is good also loh...takkan we just take pics then no give ppl benefit geh...
hai...i wan write this down leh..got 2 reason...1 is i really did learnt a lesson from tat manager lah...ppl can be a manager sure very geng d wan ler...another reason is...to tell u ppl which is reading my blog...if next time u r facing the prob like me met this kind of situation...very important is MUST introduce urself first...in case..haha

My sister's wedding

if saw the title maybe will though i will have alot of things to write in this article lah..but...hehe..nothing much to write..coz is not my wedding also..hahaha
16.9.2005 is the day that my sis have to 'seperate' one day with her husband loh, she have to stay overnite at her 'ex-house' mean my parents house lah which she used to live last time. Got party loh..for those who are not invited to the wedding dinner.hm...tat day nth much to write
then...17.9.2005 is the day she can 'meet up' with her husband liao lah..haha...no lah..if chinese will know wat i trying to say becoz this is the traditional way of the steps must do... we call that in chinese is 'zie xing niang'..so mean the guy have to come my sis's house from his house...then have to go through some 'games' or questions that the 'ji mui' of my sis asked...ohya...i am the bridemate of my sis..haha..but i didn't do much things lah...i only did alot things is the time when she have to 'zam cha' for relatives of bride's and bridegroom's sides. my relatives not many...so very fast gao dim d...but at her husband house ah..stand almost more than 1 hour loh...even the tea also add water for 5 times already..mean his relatives memang alot lah...i have to stand because have to help my sis to write down the name on the ang pau..then also help her to hold her things or jewelries in a bag..so hungry somemore...
then at nite...wedding dinner loh...at last i know the difference between sitting on the host table and the normal table liao...normal wan have to wait other ppl take the food first as a manners. but VIP wan no need...coz the waitress will devide it to all the plates then give it to each of us...tat is the good side lah..the bad side is we have to wait till the waitress finish putting all the food in every plate and give to us only we can eat.
anyway...nth much special ler..just another tiring day...

not the rite time to chat-part 2

start with 1st day of the funeral thingy, we have to stay at tat place for 2 days, from 12pm till 12am. nth to do...just sit there, when got ppl come, when they give money, give them sweet, then 'zong hiong' tat kind of thing have to do. the 'hiong' or candle finish have to change..i think tat's all lah...
so..1st day when reach there...'zong hiong' 1st, then see my grandma in the coffin, very sad..so cry again...but just tears come out like tat lah...me and my elder bro and sis oso not in mood like tat especially my bro. noon tat time actually i dun wan eat lunch..not dun wan...no appetite, but then gastric, so must eat liao.then at nite when 'da zai', cry again...when think back those memories with grandma.
2nd day...we reach there at 10 something ler..so quite sleepy, and 2nd day all of us...seems tat our mood become ok abit, mean not tat sad and no mood lah.
3rd day...worst. coz 3rd day is the last day i can see my grandma. in tat 2 day, i keep on thinking. altot tat everyone have to face this kind of thing..but...i really really dun hope to face this kind of thing anymore...mean i dun hope anyone tat is close with me will die. for sure tat is impossible...but i really can't stand it. and i asked myself a stupid question, can they dun burn my grandma and let her stay with us?( i know tat sounds 'bin tai' lah)...hai..i dunno lah.but i think my grandma came back to our house on 2nd nite, coz at 4am tat time, my dog bark..not bark lah..dunno how we say tat words liao, when dog saw those things will wat wan..so i think my grandma came back to see us the last time also loh :(
so..3rd day 7.30 have to wake up liao..then 8.30 those monk 'da zai' the last time. then we have to follow the car to the place to burn the 'mayat' and the coffin. when the monk 'da zai' some of us already start to cry coz is really the last time to see my grandma liao..and on the way to tat place (just beside) we oso crying(me and my bro the worst). i tot my bro will be the worst, but i am the worst..when i went to bathroom to change oso shock coz i saw my eyes turn red liao..all the way back home...still crying..so my elder bro said:'dun cry..if not grandma hardly to leave us.' after my bro said tat..i control myself to stop crying. but when i reached home..sat on the sofa, saw the pic tat my family took with grandma wan...my tears cant stop dropping again.
until now...i still not used to it, i still miss my grandma so much. altot i love to look at the sky no matter day or nite to see how nice is the sky, but now when i look at the sky, is another meaning for me.

not the rite time to chat?

oppsy..long time didn't post again...
not the rite time to chat, my msn oso put this nick...and tat can be one of the reason tat i no mood to blog..which is my grandma passed away last week.
on 23th august 2005, my grandma passed away, me and my family had turn to sad mood, all of us cant stop crying when saw my grandma suffering, but we all did to help her to fulfill her wish. the next day my parents think is really the time to sent her to hospital although she had came back from hospital few weeks ago. when she was sent back to hospital, the doctor wan to sue my dad somemore, said how come the 'luka' become so big and so serious already, and said we all didn't take care an old person good, if we really didn't take good care of her, she won't cant live until 93 years old loh..somemore the previous doctor didn't ask us to bring her back also.
after my grandma stayed in hospital, every day me and my family or some of our relatives had visit her, but she didn't really seems not serious.
tuesday, actually me and my frens planning to go 'cheung k', but we canceled coz not enuff ppl, and i felt tat is so lucky tat i had cancelled becoz my grandma died on tat day.
my family except my elder sis and bro didn't come, my paretns, me, my bro and few of my relatives went to hospital. when we reached not until few minits, my grandma heart stop beating altot the watever machine is have heart beat. everytime i watch tv and saw the machine oso got feeling liao when saw tat line become 1 straight line( mean tat person had die). this time i saw it infront of me and the person is my grandma. my tears cant stop falling.
then my mom called my elder bro 1st to ask him to come to hospital now but not to tell him yet tat my grandma has passed away coz she scared my bro will speed, but i think who heard this kind of thing oso know wat happen ler..and when my bro reached he cry until more sad and sad and sad becoz he cant see my grandma for the last time be4 she stop breathing.
and tat day, is really a very terrible and sad day for us. after we reached home, i still can't stop crying, i really very not used to it becoz my grandma live with us.and actually few of us already have the feeling dunno why, tat day in college, dunno why i felt very frustrated, very no mood and very 'fan'. then my mom felt tat got something happen like tat so she go cut her hair (ppl said family memeber pass aaway cannot cut hair woh).my maid more geng, the day be4 she dreamt tat my grandma dress very nice and come back to our house...
-continue on next blog-

PC fair again

so long time didn't write my blog again...almost 2 months..hehe..lazy mer..wat to do..see my title oso know i going to write PC fair again ler..
ya..coz i work again..in pc fair..but is for another company liao...sure not for those big company lah..but so lucky i can work for this company...basic 1 day rm100...but we can eat wat we want..i mean they da bao for us lah...and those boss so damn nice somemore...so funny...haha
1st day our lunch is the PC fair included already wan...the rice..sorry to say tat..not nice 2 eat at all ler...but force myself to eat half loh coz very hungry...so..half where enuff for me wan..so dinner tat time i sooooo hungry...they ask us wat we wan 2 eat..we r just promoter..so oso not dare 2 ask too much ler..so i mai said as long is not vegetables and not spicy wan can liao...after they went off...i regreted and told my fren...i should ask them to buy MC.D double cheese burger set for me...when they came back..i am soooooo surprise and happy..coz they really da bao MC.D...hahahaahah....got double cheese burger somemore!!! altot dun have vanilla coke lah..hehe..sorry to one of the boss coz i ate his double cheese burger...but i dun like fillet old fish mer...
ohya..at the 1st day another thing surprised me is the guy...last time met in the previous PC fair wan..coz we still got contact each other..he told me he won't go for tat PC fair coz boss dun let..but i saw him coz he saw us when he pass by...ciss...tipu wan...so..1st day already alot ppl ler...so very tired
2nd day...guess wat we eat...we ate PIZZA HUt...hahaha...i was jsut thinking wat i ate for diner liao ah..then only i remember is pizza oso..tat left over wan...coz at nite they oso lazy da bao d coz actually we all cannot bring in the food from outside...then after work only go eat...MC.D again...sorry to say tat...hahaahah..dunno izit becoz of tat...so my stomach damn pain early in the morning..so the 3rd day whole day oso not tat feeling well ler..headache somemore...but luckly not tat serious ler..
ohya...got 1 customer's baby so cute...when we give him sweet..he no reaction...but when we give him 1 cup of water...he looks surprise and happy..hahaha...so cute...
after work actually we plan 2 have a nice and expensive dinner tat boss offer for us wan..but seems tat all of us got our own thing 2 do..so..they will call us out next time 2 eat loh...so far our plan is go 'cheung k'..hahaha..
neway...really quite happy and enjoy working this 3 days...if wan i work for their company's promoter...work for how long oso nvm..haha..but 1 thing not good bout it is....will GAIN WEIGHT err!!!...haha :p

i shouldn't clean my room!!

ahhhhhhhh....i so sad and no mood ah..my heart broken liao coz i accidentally broke the glass flower tat i brought from a wedding last time...last time i take it so carefully...then just now broke it becoz wan to clean my room...ahhhhh :~~(

long time again

some frens complain liao...why so long i didn't post any blog...and i think is time 2 write somethere her liao since already 1 month i didn't write my blog..haha
10-12 i was working for the PWTC pc fair...damn tired oh...stand for 11 hours...and 3 days sleep less than 20 hours...hai...
the 1st day...got 2 ppl had asked to work for them oso...got 1 is 'bin tai' wan lah...'wan ban' wan...i oso dun wan 2 talk bout tat liao...then another wan is ask us to work at a pc fair oso at the place near klcc on august...good good...got income again liao...haha...
and then... start from the 1st day...got a leng chai work beside my booth wan...i saw tat he always look at me loh...and at last...the last day...he come talk 2 me liao..haha..my fren oso said tat she is just waiting him and see when he will come talk 2 me coz the day be4 she oso saw he always look at me...he got ask my frens for my number but my fren ask him go ask me lah...at tat time he didn't ask...
at 5 something tat time...my booth already started to 'sao dong'...after tat we went to out main booth...we went to walk around since we have nothing to do there...me and my fren go search for laptop. we saw a laptop the screen damn clear oh..and so nice...after asking many things...i asked wat's the colour of the laptop...then when i fold it down...its white!! tat laptop is wat i am searching for...white laptop and got build in camera, light and screen so nice somemore...and can be cheap somemore woh...but still continue search around...suddenly we saw tat leng chai again woh...haha...so me and my fren and him talk awhile loh...and at last...he ask for my number...but i didn't give too bad...haha...not i bad lah...just dunno why tat time i felt is not the rite time to give leh...but now oso no more liao loo...haha...
when we reach our fren's house tat time...we went the MC.D near the curve wan to have our dinner and supper loh...didn't eat dinner..so damn hungry...haha...but is really fun lah altot very tired in during working in PC fair...now wait for august loh...another bigger PC fair...then can search for leng chai again...hahaha

which wan u prefer?

long time didn't write my blog liao...hehe...pai seh lah..coz nth special to say oso...but got somethine always in my mind loh

nowadays...or should say since last time...i always have a question in my mind...which i prefer? find a person tat i love him more than he love me? or he love me more than i love him? my mom told me before that we should find someone tat love u more than u love him...but...i felt tat...i am the one who hope to find the one i love him more than he love me woh...hm...how leh? how u people think? which will u all prefer?

ZOUK

hahahahahha...i'm so happy..coz at last i been to ZOUK...hehe
let me start from yesterday morning first...i went to red box with my frens...of coz go to sing song lah...my fren michelle (cheung k kaki) told me tat Tim (coursemate) can sing very well. tat day is the first time i hear he sing...its soooooooo nice until i really can't beleive that the guy infront of me is him...hahaha...he sang like the singer who sang the song...but he is most similiar to jay chow...i dun really like jay chow and i also dun like people sing his kind of rap song in karaoke...but he is the first one who change my mind...is just like jay chow singing infront of me..haha...
after tat...we all went to dinner...and then we go to ZOUK..haha...we get out from house at 12...but we reached there at 1 something coz we sesat in KL...and then we went home at 3 something...in the last half hour at ZOUK...a guy...tat standing beside me ask my name (as every clubbing gal will met this kind of situation before)...i told my name and he oso told me his name but it was too noisy, i can't even hear wat he say but i act that i heard...haha...and then he told me that i dance very nice...haahah...i so happy oh...coz i only heard my frens said i can dance for a very long time but haven't hear people said that i dance very nice...thanks to him..haha (or is it just a way to knowing me) :p...i dun care..hehehe...as long as i had been to ZOUK..wahaha

Trip to Malacca

so many days didn't write my blog liao...becoz i was too bz...or should say i am not at home also...so i can't online...hehe...
coz monday i went to Malacca with my college frens...we stay there for 3 days 2 nites...but in 2 days i only slept 9 hours...damn it...hahaha...no lah...coz we dun feel like sleeping also...play truth or dare also can play for few hours (in the midnite)..but all also choose to say the truth only...but also because of tat...we are getting more closer...at the 1st day we reached there...we went to A-famosa the waterworld...then at nite we have a walk around there and bought some soft toys for hp...the 2nd day is abit boring lah...some of us went 2 museum and some stay at the hotel. tat nite all of us slept earlier than the day before...coz we are too tired...hehethen the 3rd day, also the last day...we went to ice sculp...damn freezy man...tat time i was just wearing sandals, skirt and t-shirt and they just give us a jacket..but at last we all take off the jacket to see who can't stand the cold 1st..wat a stupid idea...but all of us did tat...hahaha...anyway...i really enjoyed with my college frens in Malacca...its a small town but we didn't feel bored at all...hehe

how are me? not good beocz os Momo :~(

oo...how long didn't write my blog liao ah?haha...becoz i reformat the comp liao...and i forgot my username and password...and i lazy 2 find it out...so...until now only hardworking abit find it out loh..hehe...
my life ah...not happy ah!!so sad...becoz of momo...momo is a puppy tat my sis in law bought 2 days ago...i love her so much coz she so stick to me...yesterday she slept with me somemore...but tat puppy got sick i think...my mom brought her to clinic today and momo really sick ler...so my sis in law take it back to the shop tat sold tat puppy to him wan and maybe change another dog or dunno......coz she's sick...and might die :~(...waaaa....i dun wan errrrr...*sniff sniff*...i so sad err...i miss momo so much...:~~((

- THE END -

end...really the end liao...our relationship at last oso end liao...but then dunno why...i feel sad less than i expect...or maybe i was too hurt before break up and now no feeling already...or maybe i already have the preperation. but also maybe tat i also wan to break up...just tat i am not tat kind of person tat will say to break up...i rather the other side who said break up...dunno why i will have this action...maybe some people will scold i'm stupid or wat...but as long as i dun feel bad for tat.
hai...felt tat is like a dream...when with him is a dream althought is not tat a really very very very nice dream...at least i still have quite lot of good memories with him...now...at last...i have to wake up...the prob is i dunno i should get another bf fast...or i rather be single...but if a person stay single for too long...the hurt will be hard to recover
i really dunno now i is acting happy? or tat i really feel nothing...say wan to forget person in a short time of coz is not an easy things...i always tell people that we need a life time to forget a person...u will only forget the person only after u die. and i said tat becoz i oso agree with tat...
hai...dunno ler...i really dunno now i really nothing liao...or i just act be happy? but i also felt weird why i sad less than i expect...maybe also good gua...

my life is terrible...

my life...my mind...my emotion...my everything...is really getting worst.
yesterday...is the 1st day he worked...i called...ask wheter he tired anot or wat or watever things tat happen on him when he working. i dunno is my feeling got prob or is just normal we talk so normal...like fren asking something from fren...sounds like i'm the one who asking all the things and he just answered my question...i felt tat i am very annoyed...so i decide to stop our conversation and hang down the phone after saying bye since he is driving also. i dunno why he treat me so cool...izzit becoz he too tired? but after wat happen tat day...i felt tat our relationship getting worst...and is hard 2 recover coz we dun have time 2 talk bout it and i only can meet him once a week. i just know that i really have 2 talk bout our prob...but i dunno wat 2 say to him.
i told a net fren..bout my prob..he told me tat one of his fren suicide becoz her bf tat been together for almost 3 years had break up with her...when i read her blog...wat she wrote is exactly wat i think in my heart...and how i feel and wat i really wan 2 say...and the way she did...maybe i will do it sooner or later...just see when i can't control myself...
i saw a HK charity programme just now...is something like penyakit of mental. they mention bout a penyakit call emotional sick...when i saw wat they list to know whether u got this penyakit anot...i think i got tat penyakit...maybe..if really got chance...i oso hope 2 go see a 'pshycology' doctor...and hope 2 get well...if not...i think i really will do things tat i shouldn't do
http://sadlyangel.blogspot.com/ <---- this is the one tat i mentioned tat wat she wrote is 99.9% wat i think and felt and hope 2 said. i have to say sorry to her if she mind tat i show this...

not bad oh

today is not a really bad day for me...at least nothing bad happen to me...yet...haha...
went dinner with my sista, we went pizza hut at Tmn Tun wan. After that i went to my sis house to chose clothes . She's giving me clothes that she dun really wear anymore...some is quite new wan leh...yea yea...got many new clothes to wear liao...haha...she gave me a shoe somemore...its in green...so cute tat shoe...hehe...ohya...and she oso gave me some nail polish and cosmetics...ha...suddenly get so many things...happy happy :)

what the......

wat the f*ck...soli i have to that but someone 'ci xin' make me mad...actually today my mood is okok wan...but then just now when i check my frenster...i just read my new msg 1 by 1 without looking their pics 1st...then saw one tithe the title 'hey', then the msg is 'pls collect skin'....then i check it out who the hell is this...then only i saw is a 'sei fei poh'...i won't scold or even say people like tat...but then wat the hell she trying to do with me...i didn't even know her and didn't 'tak zui' her oso then ask me collect skin...sial!!!!!!!!!

sei fei poh's frenster uin-->http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=10173583

no mood...

hai....dunno why no mood this few days..especially today i think....like a 'mayat' doing everything...do watever things oso no energy, brain like not working like tat...but then only know how to tihnk negative things...hai...really dunno this kind of life will last how long...

why why why???

wat a damnnnnnnnnn boring weekend i had...as usual...but then dunno why like more boring as last time...i dun really mind tat 'da bao' liao then eat at home...but this 2 days really damn boring...
so at nite i think to go find my lao gong the next day, which mean today (sunday)...but of coz i ask him 1st...he sure no prob...but then...tat is wat i think of doing only, i'm not sure that i will go anot...few seconds later he came out with a good idea...he said he come find me at 7 today to go eat dinner...
ya...nice...really a good idea...but in my heart...i will think tat...ha...will this date is goin on?or will it be cancel again...never mind...before i sleep i still give myself abit of hope.then at 5something...i fall asleep.
about 8 something in the morning...i awake (i always wake up half of my sleep, haha).i check out my msn...he is still online and he is still in the gb...i ask him why still dun wan sleep...he said he can't sleep...ok...i know there is 99% tat the date might be cancel today
is about 11.20am, i woke up again and so 'ngam' my hp msg tone rang. i had a feeling tat is him tat send me msg and i am right. he said he really can't sleep dunno why, ask me how somemore. actually is just telling me that he can't come find me today. well... i reply him by wat i know wat will happen, he didn't reply, i know i said something wrong again and i sent him a msg with wat i wrote just now.
after few seconds he called me, we talk bout 12minits like tat. he said he really can't sleep, not he dun wan but is really can't, maybe is becoz the day before he slept for 15 hours. okok...i didn't blame him also, just felt dissapoint, althought i'm something like get use to this kind of situation already. but actually today is an 'extra' date for me becoz if i didn't go find him and he didn't say wan to find me, there might not be a date for today. so maybe tat is why i can be not so mind that he didn't come find me today...but then...hai....sad lah...always like tat

hai...i really felt tat this year i so unlucky lah!! my right leg keep on get hurt, the last day before CNY already hurt twice on right leg and right elbow. just now wan cook mee to eat, when take the 'periuk', tat holder broke liao!!so the whole periuk drop on my leg!!damn painnnnnnnnn!!!!striaght away my leg got a small part become dark green liao...wuaaaa....y i so unlucky wan ah!! T.T

stupid idea?

my dear dear lao gong start his work next weekend at mid valley...
he got the uniform for his work, is in orange colour, i love to see guys wear orange shirt!!i saw tat shirt last week but i didn't see he wear tat...then yesterday nite i got an idea is tat ask him to wear it then show me throught the webcam...but then i dun dare to ask him to do so...felt tat it is a stupid idea...but i really wan to see merr!! T.T

use my own money...again!!

wat a boring day...again...
yesterday slept at 5something, morning lah...then until today 2something pm only satisfied to wake up...
hungry ler but nothing to eat, desperate to eat MC.D (as usual,haha)...ask my mom give me money and accompany me go 'da bao'...then she said always eat things so heavy...she ask me to eat chicken rice...which i already ate yesterday...so i dun wan eat lah...
i kept on ask her...so how ah...she dun wan answer me...fine!!!!!! tot i dunno y she dun wan answer me...becoz she dun wan give me money to buy MC.D mah..and i told her the same thing as i mentioned...then i go upstair change my clothes then go centrepoinnt tat MC.D to 'da bao' by driving lah of coz...with my OWN money...already give so little pocket money...i can't find tat whose pocket money is less than me already...danny (my bro) ask from u then u just straight away give...fine lah...u dun wan give me money is fine...i can ask from dad! XP