unbelievable

At first I was thinking, should I blog today, cause my mood is not good at all and hurt after what has happened this afternoon. But I end up finished one of my assignment earlier than I expect and is before 12am, so I decided to blog.

Then I think again, should I post what happen to me then cause is really quite...er...privacy gua for me. But...I decided to tell since not many people will be reading this and human have emotions, just that I dont show it often.

Well...what has happened...make it short..I went to consultation for my literary assignment. Of course I did not get a good feed back, I mean I dont really mind about that because I know I wont. But the reaction and respond of the tutor on my english problem...I saw he shake his head, he sigh....it really hurts me alot and I am so dissapointed at myself.

Is not that I don't want or I cant accept critiques, I can. But my heart cant handle the gravity of it. I always seems like a person that so calm and not much emotions when things happen, but I am not that though as what I can be. I have a soft heart. I am actually very emotional. So I cannot stand it..I mean LUCKILY I used to control myself not to cry in the public, so I still can tahan when infront of him (althought I almost cant). But when I called my bf and talked bout it, I really cannot tahan d. Maybe is infront of people I can release, thats why I cried at that time. But I really cant believe that I actually cried in the public cause I was still in Uni and some people are still walking by (like more than 5 loh) if people up there (cause I was near the studio) notice..then I think will be tons of them saw..but I dont think so la. But at that time I cant care too much d gua...although I still care abit.

What to do...hai...after hung up the phone I have to act nothing happen. Wipes my tears and go in to the studio and start my works with my group. That's me I guess.