认识我的人都常常问或骂我，为什么非得把自己搞的三更半夜才去睡觉，这篇文章就是这么来的。
我总是喜欢把自己搞得三更半夜才睡,然后可以的话，我不想一大清早就起身。因为只有这样我才能避开这残酷的世界。
在深夜里, 我不需要和假人说话。我不需要扮坏人。我不需要说我不想说的话.我不需要看人家的脸色。我不需要去社交。我不需要人家来教我怎么做人。最重要的是，我不需要面对任何人。(如果不上网聊天的话，不然情况都还是一样)
如果起得早，我不能活在梦里。我必须面对我知道的现实。我必须听人家的指令。我必须和更多的人说话。我必须让更多的人讨厌我。最重要的是我必须从我的伤心游乐园走去乐观戏院。
我不喜欢独处，因为我希望有人能了解我，我需要很多的爱，我需要人家给我自信心，我需要向人家解释我不是他们想象的那样，我需要人家赞同我，我需要人家和我有默契，我要分享我的喜怒哀乐，同时我也能分享他们的喜怒哀乐，更希望的是我一直以来都劝自己死心但还没放弃的寻找我心目中所谓女的好朋友。
我喜欢独处，就只因为我可以做我自己。我要想就想，哭就哭。更好的是我没接口寻找我心目中的好朋友。
专家说，深夜容易让人胡思乱想，尤其是满月的时候。但我觉得，胡思乱想和清醒或三思，也许就只是一线之差。
P.S 这并不代表平时的我是个带着面具的人。我还是我。认识我很久的人或许会会的认出这样的
文章铁定是我作的了。我都已经把这么样的秘密说出来了，所以，不要在审我了，好吗?
Yup, here comes the
english version which actually I
dont really have the mood to do it but I, who consider myself as a almost perfectionist was thinking, if next time I come back and edit this post to add in the
english part, then it will not be done on the 7
th of May, which mean I
didnt blog on my following day, and this stress me up! wt...h...anyway...here's the translation
People around me often asked my why I always stay up so late, why not I go to sleep earlier, it's not good for health, not good for skin, not pretty...
bla bla bla...so there's how this article sort of 'created'
I like to keep myself stay up late, if can, I wont want to wake up early in the morning. Cause this is the only way that I can avoid to see this cruel world.
In the midnight, I
dont need to talk with fakers. I
dont need to act bad. I
dont need to say something that I
dont feel like saying. I
dont need to see peoples' face color
(direct translation as a typical Msian do, or people who know chinese but not good in english do, and I just like being this way, doing the direct translation. so whoever doesnt know the meaning, too bad I cant think of any 'good' english word to describe that, so just forget about that) . I
dont need to social. I
dont need people teach me how to be me. Most importantly is that I
dont need to face or see anyone. (Only if I doenst go online and sitting alone or watching tv, if not there is not much difference)
If I wake up early (let's say
minimum noon). I cant live in my dream anymore, I have to face the reality that I known, I have to listen what other people say, I have to talk with more people, I have to make more people to hate or dislike me. Most importantly, I have to leave my pessimistic garden to the
optimistic cinema.
I
dont like to be alone, because I hope there is someone can totally understand me, I need
alot of love, I need people to give me confidence, I need to explain to people I am not what they think, I need people to agree with me, I need people to get me or have the same
wave link with me. I want to share my emotions, at the same times I hope I can share
their emotions. The most I hope is to get a best girl friend that I always wanted to although at the same times I tell myself to forget it.
I like to be alone, just because I can be myself. I can think whatever I want, I can cry whenever I want. The best is I
dont have any excuse to search for my so called best girl friend.
I heard before that people tend to get more depress or sad which will cause you to think too much nonsense during the midnight, especially where it is full moon. But what I felt that nonsense and non-nonsense is equal.
(well people who can read chinese can see the big different in this paragraph. I just dont really give much damn that how this paragraph can be as appropriate as the chinese part )P.S This article doenst mean that I'm wearing a mask usually, I'm still who I am. People who know me for a long time might just get to regconize that this kind of article was so written by me. I already the secret can be told. So please people, stop judging me. thanks
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all soh lou n soh poh...hahaha
Maja!!! Probably the first and last Norwegian I get to have as my friend..haha..cause dont think will happen in Msia...thanks for being such a friendly and a good director and sort of leader in the group...
aww...beautiful angel...thanks for all the sharings and helps...take good care ya
~a house in Boxhill that I think its so nice so I
~ the part where attracted me to chose this
~ my room in the house ~ vertical room, haha ~
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